Who knows! Only Cam and his demon(s)!! But I tell you... some people will never overcome their demons and can never run away from their past no matter how much they want to deny it, or to claim that it was a thing of the past. There will always be some relic or some scar or some token that represents one's desire to cling onto the past. It's like claiming that being a neo nazi skin-head was a thing of the past... yet deciding to still name yourself after a neo-nazi glorifying movie and continuing to spew racist hatred at other people. Some people could use a good exorcism!
Singer Suzi Quatro had a hit song all about Cam Moony's shot at goal that day. It went Can the Cam boys get it while you can (the goal that is). Can the Cam? Cheers.